Hello my lovelies,
Huge apologies for not updating the blog sooner, been in a right rut of late. In all honesty as I type this I'm laid in bed watching Independance Day after being signed off work for a week with a viral infection. Oh the joys of the body, it's not just the viral infection that has stopped me from updating as it's been nearly a month and in that time I've had my 29th birthday woohoo!
Again in all honesty I have just not wanted to blog, not because I don't love my blog I do and I love all of you who visit the blog. But because I have lost interest in everything, I've not wanted to go out, not wanted to go to work that much. I mean getting out of bed some days is a chore itself. I work in a school and the students seem to think I'm this happy, bubbly person who enjoys a laugh. Which I do, or did, now it's like I dunno, I feel like I have to plaster a smile on my face most days. When I get home I have dinner, take the dog for a walk, have a bath and then get into my pjs, then sit in front of the TV watching stuff recorded into the sky box whilst playing on my iPad.
I didn't realise I was so bad until my mum pointed it out at which point I was very reluctant to go to the doctor, but I took the plunge and whilst at my appointment I told her how I was feeling. Much to my amazement she was really nice and didn't push anything. It was such a relief to talk about what was happening that I almost cried. Doctor said we will take it one step at a time and see what helps. But first things first is my physical health then we can move onto mental and emotional health.
It's actually a relief to type this as well as I'm the type of person to keep things locked up and then it will get to much for me and I end up in melt down, either screaming at family for no reason or just crying in my bed at night hoping no one hears. I hope none of you are going through something similar alone. If you are I highly recommend you talk to someone, if not a family member or friend then a professional. People now a days think mental health is still taboo when it's not. It's an issue that needs addressing sooner rather than later, so that people don't feel ashamed of what they are going through and get the help that they need and deserve.
So like the picture says "Rule your mind or it will rule you" take action before you end up in a rut that seems so bad that you think you won't get help because you will get help. Like Dumbeldore said "Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times. If one only remembers to turn on the light." Another great quote that does make you think hard about what he is trying to say, as it can be seen as him telling Harry something and telling the reader something completely different, which I think is genius.
Have any of you been through something similar or no someone who has? What advice can you give? Please comment below.
