27/05/2017

Mental Health

 
 
Hello my lovelies,
 
I've been thinking about doing this post for a while, but as it is such a personal issue for me I wasn't sure. Yet during the mental health awareness week I posted an Instagram post talking about my mental health situation. So I thought why not do an in depth post about it.
 
Mental health is such an important issue, yet we don't talk about it due to the stigma attached to it. I personally felt ashamed when I started seeing the signs. I am a teaching assistant who works with children with special needs, I felt that if I acknowledged my health issue then I wouldn't be good enough to look after my students. So for months I put off going to the doctors. 
 
 
If it wasn't for my mum saying that I should go to the doctors, I probably still would be saying I'm ok! My health physically, started to get worse and I took a day off work to see my doctor about a chest infection. She asked about any reason why (in summer) I could get a chest infection, and for some reason it all came flooding out. I was feeling stress from work, a few month previous I had lost my dog Gracie, who when I had seizures would always be there when I came round, it hit me pretty hard if I am honest. So when I blurted all this out to the doctor, she gave me a questionnaire. Told me to make another appointment to see her and for a blood test and she also signed me off work for a week. When I went back for my check up I was told I was lacking vitamin D so had to go on supplements, which I will be taking for my life, along with Iron tablets. I was also told, that I had depression, stress and anxiety.
 
 
It's hard when you hear the words out loud, but it is also a relief as you finally know that it's not in your head. My doctor gave me a choice of therapy or medication. She said she would rather not put me on medication and so I should try therapy, I never done the therapy which looking back was stupid, because I'm struggling. I had to force myself to go to a friends hen do a few weeks ago, yet when I was there I loved it. Getting up and going to work is also a struggle, I hate being ill and having days off as I feel like i am letting people down, which makes my anxiety and depression worse. Yet, going into work I feel like I'm not going to be of use and so my anxiety flares up. However, I put on a brave face and a smile and no one can tell the different. 
 
 
A few months back i had an annual review with my manager and she asked if I had anything to tell her after we spoke about my performance. So i thought even though its been a year and I don't like talking about it, she needs to know. So I told her and i was so surprised with her response. She told me how surprised she was as I always turn up smiling and laughing, she had no idea that i was going through that and also that she was proud that I was coming into work and also proud that I never let any of the students find out as they would have been constantly worried. As it is if i have days off the students always ask if I'm ok. But she also told me that if i did anything then to go and she her. I had a bit of a slip a few weeks after when I was having a particularly bad day, and a student was being really rude to me and wouldn't listen. I actually go up and walked out the room and had a cry in the corridor away from everyone. Due to being too proud and stubborn i didn't tell my manager about this or any colleague. 
 
During mental health awareness a colleague of mine posted on Facebook her struggle and it surprised me as she is so bubbly and outgoing. So when I DM'd her she was also surprised that i was in the same boat as her as i hide it as well. But we have both agreed that should we feel down we will go and speak to one another. Having these conditions (for lack of a better word), it has helped me to connect with students. As we have a few with anxiety and so I know what they go through, especially the year 11 students who are doing their exams now. I feel it has helped me in a way that although they don't know I'm the same, they feel as though i understand, which i do and so it helps them not to feel alone.
 
 
So to end this long post, for which I apologise for, i will say this. If you notice that something is wrong or feels wrong with your feelings then please go and see a doctor. The longer you put it off the longer you suffer in silence, please don't do what i did. Also to those who are already living knowing that your mental health isn't in tip top condition. I applaud you for getting the help, the first step to getting help is always the hardest and also living every day with it is hard. There is no cure for it, we learn to live with it and to cope every day. Just take it one step at a time and always take time for yourself.
 
 
 
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20/05/2017

Life

Hello my lovelies,   So a lot has changed with me and a lot hasn't changed if that makes sense. Ive turned 30, said goodbye to my year 11 students, went to an old school friends surprise hen do, started an allotment with mum, and starting reading more. I've even set myself a reading challenge of 25/30 books in a year, (it was originally 50, but I started the challenge properly in April so didn't see it as achieveable. I've also dieting again, I've got my year 11 students prom to go to and a wedding reception and I dont really want to be the size of an elephant ha! I will be doing longer posts on each of the above mentioned, I've just had lots going on. I know that is not an excuse, but it's true. I will update more, I've got a new planner thanks to my sister, but more on that in my birthday blog which will be up soon. Also you may not have seen on my instagram my latest post about mental health again a post will be put up in the coming week. I will have loads of posts coming over the coming weeks, so you have been warned. Until then though my lovelies, have a good weekend and lets hope the rain stops.
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26/03/2017

Cruelty Free Beauty Products

 
Hello lovelies,
 
So apologies that I haven't posted since December, I've been very busy both work wise and personal life wise. A Happy Mothers Day to all the mums out there, have a fantastic day. Now all that is done onto the topic at hand, cruelty free beauty products. Now we all love make up, well I hope we all do I mean why else would you be reading a beauty blog, anyways for many years I have been using the same products and I was shocked when I found out that some of my favourite brands test on animals. Now in this day and age there are ways to test products and not have animals involve. So why is it that they still do? I don't know about you, but so far I don't know the answer. I do know that from now on I will be trying my hardest to find some cruelty free products to use. I do use some products like Urban Decay who thankfully don't test on animals, even though their parent company L'Oreal. Below is a list of companies that do test and a list that don't test on animals. 
 
 
I would like to add that Clarins (which I love) does unfortunately test or allows someone else to test on animals for them. Now when I saw this list and other lists I was so bummed, that so many companies that I buy stuff from test on animals. I am in the process of redoing my beauty products so that most, if not all are cruelty free. I am also shocked to know that there is an animal testing facility just opened up either in or near Hull, that tests on beagles. This not only shocked me that such sweet and innocent animals are subjected to daily torture, just so that we humans can put stuff on us that would hurt us. But also because I have a beagle myself and I can't even begin to imagine ever hurting her like that.
 
Now I know some people will think oh they are just animals they don't feel anything, but they do. So I ask all those that are ok with animal testing, which I hope is hardly anyone, to put yourself in the animals position (not just a beagles, but a mouse, a chimp, a rabbit). How would you feel if you had daily injections, cream put in your eyes, or stuff sprayed on you? These things make them go blind, cause reaction on their skin that causes the fur to fall out and leasions to occur. I would hate that, so why are we subjecting these animals to it. Now I know some are thinking oh god here we go another fanatic, and I don't care we are all entitled to our opinion and mine is we should speak out for the animals cus they can't do it themselves. So please I say to you, if you care for animals and hate animal testing then please change the products that you use.
 
I will keep this page updated with new information as and when I get it. I will also post links to my favourite products in an up and coming blog.
 
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01/01/2017

Happy New Year

 
Hello lovelies,
 
Firstly Happy New Year hope you all had a wonderful NYE. Secondly I apologise for not continuing with Blogmas I promise this year I will have all the posts ready to do before December even begins with the exception of a few.
Now seen as it's a new Year it means resolutions. My main resolution is to lose weight, I'm 30 this year, yes 30 and I don't want to be over weight and not enjoy the birthday celebrations that may happen. Plus I want to fit back into all my lovely clothes that. Don't fit at the moment. Another main one is to enjoy the year and do things that I've always wanted to do, enjoy life basically. As the saying goes it's the 1st page of a 365 day book make it a good one! And somehow that's what I plan to do. I'm going to learn to say no more often rather than trying to please everyone. And finally the blog, I'm determined to take it more seriously and to update it more and give it a new fresher feel.  
 
 
Enjoy the fresh start to the new year! Enjoy a fresh start to a better you! 
 
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21/12/2016

Blogmas Day 17/18

 
Hello lovelies,
 
Yes today is another double post (sorry been busy). It's getting closer to the end of term and to be honest I'm really feeling it. I don't think I've ever been this shattered in my entire life. Yet, I wouldn't change my job for anything else. Today I'm talking about xmas craft. Now there is so many ideas on Pinterest I get distracted so much when I'm just browsing. I do have a craft and Christmas boards and I decided to show you some crafts I want to try next year if I can.
 
 
 
 
I like this one cus it reminds me of some decs I had last year in the hall.
 
 
See these are all so simple yet effective and I want to try them next year if I get the time, which I should do really, I don't really do much lol. I've done homemade cards which I will show you after xmas day as I know family view this blog and I don't want them seeing their cards before I give them to them.
 
Anyone have any good recommendations for crafts? Comment below please.
 
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Blogmas Day 15/16

 
 
Hello my lovelies,
 
Ok so today I'm going to be doing another joint post cus nothing has happened really, I've just been working and still have some time to go before I break up (again thinking I'm posting at the correct time and not 4days before xmas). So what am I posting about here today...well I'm talking about the wonder that is Christmas work dos. 
 
I love them it gives you a chance to see your colleagues out of work and get to know them a bit better. Now this year I have two, yes two work dos, I have one with my department and one with the whole school. The one with the whole school was fantastic we all mingled, danced and sang karaoke. Now it's the first time the whole school has got together like this and it was something. I won't divulge anything cus let's be honest don't want to be talking about things that go on at Christmas dos and not just cus I work in a school. 
 
I will tell you this I did get a bit tipsy, but everyone does at xmas and it is a time to party and be merry as they say. I do hope they do another whole school next year as it was great fun. Don't expect any photos though I've made a promise not to post any pictures of anyone without their permission.
 
In other news, I've finished my xmas shopping I now need to wrap them and this year I'm being different. I'm not the typical wrapping, I'm going for brown paper, but more on that in a later post.
 
See you laters for now, 
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18/12/2016

Blogmas Day 14

 
Hi lovelies,
 
I'm sure everyone loves getting their nails all festive for Christmas but deciding on what colour or nail art you want can be the problem. I've put together a few of my fav ideas for this year's festive nails.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
I'm hoping do some of these ideas soon and thanks to my sister with all the nail varnish in each Calendar door, I won't need to be buying any new varnish lol.
 
Check out my latest calendar gifts on Instagram 
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