Life Plan Update

Hello my lovelies,

Yes another life plan and this one is so much better than the last. I'm still working as a teaching assistant and yes I still love it, but it's not what I want to do for the future. Every time I think of my future I always come back to acting. What will I think of on my death bed when I look back on my life? The what if and could have beens? Or the things I actually did? Probably a bit of both to be honest, but I know if I don't grab this dream by the horns and make it reality then I will regret it for the rest of my life.

I auditioned for LAMDA (London Academy of Music and Dramatic Art) five years ago and didn't get a place, so I thought wait a year and try again, well that year turned into five almost six and in that six years I've been saving money and researching unis and colleges and acting classes. I've found out that you don't really need a degree in acting or drama. As long as you have had training, maybe weekend, evening or summer schools then that's all that matters. Plus you have to keep on training to improve your skills. So I'm planning on doing acting classes, that way I can keep working during the day in order to actually pay for the classes and travel to classes and auditions.

Plus I don't think I could go back to uni for three years, especially seen as they are 9k a year now (damn the government). Anyways, I enquired about a few courses and one was even a singing class in my home town, they said they will put me on the waiting list for classes starting in September. Just have to look at the better acting classes. I have found a course (evening) that is three terms and costs £2250 a term so £6,750, which basically is roughly what it used to be for three years of uni, actually it's cheaper. So I may enquire about that course. Most courses are in London or Birmingham in the evening. I'm going to look at Birmingham as I don't particularly want to be wondering the streets of London on my own at night. Whereas Birmingham I can just call my sister (I know cheeky, but that's only if I need help getting to the train station when taxis are being pains in the backside).

So yes I have nearly everything figured out, it also helps that a work colleague of mine has followed his dreams of acting and now has an agent and is working at the Fringe Festival in Edinburgh Scotland and will be touring with a stage company soon as well. Plus my sister has had part of her dream come true, she had one of her short stories published in an anthology. The story is called 'The Baroness and the Servant Girl'. So if you're persistent, dedicated, hard working and stubborn, then things can pay off.

Let me know if you've followed your dreams and how they turned out. 

Edit: I've actually been researching a few courses in London and I've fallen in love with about 10, so I need to whittle them down before I start applying for them. I've also started to keep a track on my finances (thank you windows excel for making an app for the iPad, my life has been made so much easier). I've also been looking into post grad funding and was in which I can raise money without getting a personal development loan from the bank - don't want to go into anymore debt - and to be honest I'm quite enjoying all the research into courses and funding. I know I said I didn't want to go to London, but if I'm doing a post grad then - in the words of my mother - I need to go where the courses are and what better place then the home of the West End and BBC, ITV etc etc. with all this research and determination to do dance and singing lessons in the next year I think I'm finally confident enough to actually go for the acting courses. That's the only thing that held me back was my confidence (didn't help that I had stuck up girls at school telling me I wasn't good enough) but that's in the past I've grown up ( or at least I think I have lol) and I'm determined to do what I want, I've tried so hard to put acting out of my mind, but I just can't so I'm seeing that as a sign of I have to do it, I was meant to do it. I mean even if it's just bit parts in shows at least I'm acting and I have something to show for all the training and what not. So yeah, this time next year I could be say "yes I'm back of to uni again", but in the meantime I will keep you all posted on my progress I.e. Auditions, applications etc.

Migraines

                           

Hello my lovelies, 

 I haven't really written a post like this before, but it's something that is really affecting me at the moment and I'd love to speak to some fellow sufferers to talk triggers and fixes! 

I've suffered with migraines since I was about little and if you've never experienced a migraine before let me tell you it's hell. They were so bad that I used to cry in the bathroom so that my parents didn't hear, but they always managed to. Must have been the parental radar they have. I also couldn't stand light or sound, so I had to stay in my room (it had blackout curtains), but I also used eye masks and sometimes I wore ear plugs to block out sound. 

Everyones experiences are different, but the worse part is the aura that comes. This includes a throbbing in my neck, my vision then starts to blur and I can't focus on anything. I also feel sick and don't want to eat anything, which when you have a headache isn't a good idea. Along with the thumping head ache it really is the worst illness I've ever experienced. Unless I'm at home and I can go straight to bed, I start to panic as I know I will eventually burst into tears as it hurts too much.

Once I'd reached my teens my migraines seemed to subside as I was diagnosed with Epilepsy. It's weird over my teenage years and early twenties I never got the migraines only bad headaches, but recently the migraines have been coming back. Not so bad that they cause me to cry, but light and sound I still have trouble with also feeling sick. I tend to just say to my parents I have a really bad headache, sometimes I go to bed with a headache and I wake up with one as well. I don't know what causes them, but I've been having trouble sleeping and have had some stress due to my new job so this is the only thing I can think of. 

I haven't really found anything that helps. I picked up some Paracetamol migraine tablets, but I only used these the following day in case another started. I also like the cooling pads you stick to your forehead and I find these do help. I plan on buying a stick that does the same thing and have heard they are brilliant. I think the real test will come when I feel one coming on next time to see if these two options stop the migraine. 

If you've never experienced a migraine, you'll think I'm a being a little melodramatic when I say these attacks really are affecting my life at the moment. I am miserable and I have to really force myself to go into work if I've woken up with one, if I get one during the day I have to make do as I don't want to go home as I will feel like I'm letting them down. As I said if you haven't suffered with a migraine you won't know how horrendous they are! If you have suffered with migraines PLEASE let me know if you've found a cure that works for you! 

A Little Update!

Hello my lovelies, hope you are all doing ok. I must firstly apologise for my lack of posts, my life has been hectic at the moment. First I'm job hunting never really liked the job I was in so it was kind of a blessing when the contract ended, but now what with the current economic climate it's hard to find a job that I would really like. Secondly my great aunt has been diagnosed with terminal cancer and has also been told she has a couple of months. So as you can understand blogging has been kind of side lined for a bit.

However, I am back now and finally have a notebook which I'm writing a list of posts to do, products I would love to try. Photo list of products I have recently purchased, and OOTD, FOTD, and various other stuff I need to do for the blog. I've also entered a couple of competitions, some I haven't won some I'm still waiting to hear about. 

I have just realised that this post will be the second or third post of the day, I am so making up for the missing posts...sort of lol.

I am doing a raffle for breakthrough breast cancer and every donation (click on the button above my picture on the side bar) will go to breakthrough and you will be entered into the raffle to win lovely prized. These include vouchers from Stardust Boutique (dresses recently seen on the girls for MTV the valleys) vouchers from Hello Gorgeous, free facial plus three friends from Tropical Skin Care and various other prizes. Remember girlies show your bangers some TLC (Touch Look Check).

Do you sponsor a charity? If so I would love to hear about your work?